This is a tough post to write, but one I will do regardless because I am at the end of my rope. I am a 10+ year veteran of the recruiting wars. I spent all my time in the agencies of New York City recruiting technologists. 7 of those years were with a consulting firm where I was top dog with 50+ people on billing. I never thought about the future, or changes because I was content making a lot of money. In 2009, that all changed. The market as we know started going south, and I started losing all my people and not putting them back on. Mind you, all that time, I was just finding people and was not dealing with clients.
So i jumped ship. A few friends went to a new firm, they offered me a good chunk of money to go and I went. And that started the downward spiral of my career. I stayed 7-8 months, then based on my solid background, left and found something I thought better. And then I did it again and again.
Until now! Now, I have no job and haven't now since June. I cannot even get an agency to talk to me. I am wasted goods at this point. So I am not trying anymore. My back is against the wall, in fact on the other side of the wall. I have a family, 3 kids, big house and all and no money coming in, and all the money that was there previously, is now gone.
I have to put out that shingle and reinvent myself and start fresh. But, and again this is the difficult parts, the stress, the anguish, the embarrassment, my head is a jumbled mess. My technology connections are dead and gone and stale, so I cannot leverage those relationships. I am motivated and demotivated at the same time. I have former colleagues sending me over reqs to work on and I just don't even touch them. I used to be able to see a path of where to go to find candidates. I was always a headhunter more than anything else. Now, I cannot see it.
But, I need to get to work ASAP and make some money for my family as well as for myself.
I know there is a blessing in disguise in here somewhere, but I am not able to see it. I need to get moving and just don't feel like I know how. I need some willing voices to talk to and provide some guidance. A new niche, a new space, one not so overloaded that I feel like it is senseless to event try.
Someone to help put me on the path. A conversation on the phone would do wonders and would be greatly appreciated.
You would be helping a fellow recruiter as well as a family in need.